Things of truth

I don't know why I have do much hope of Briana liking me. Because I know it's basically impossible for her to like me. Forget that I'm unattractive, that I'm socially awkward, and that I'm kind of a douche bag. For someone to love me, like me, whatever, I have to first love/like myself. You can't love someone that doesn't like them self. That's the way of things. And since I'm not sure whether or not I like myself yet, because I haven't in the past. And since I'm not sure, that means I don't like myself, and so it's nigh impossible for Briana, or anyone else for that matter, to "like" me. Which kinda makes it harder for me to like myself, because the fact that no one has/does/will hurts my self esteem which makes it harder for me to appreciate myself. I know these things really don't matter right now, and that I shouldn't let them bother me, but they matter to me(for some stupid reason) and it does bother me. I guess that's all that I wanted/needed to say.